blog it. i give up.

Fuck it. I give up. I give it all up. It's too hard. I just don't think it's ever going to happen with her so I'm going to give up. I don't even know if I'm on her radar of New York's eligible bachelors and recent events of which I won't go into only cement how far out of mind I truly may be. It was a long shot anyway. Fuck! Let me win one goddamn it!

I think all of 2010 I'm going to stay off romantic relationships. Lets see how that pans out. I bet quiet and uneventful like 2009. Trust it's not going to be a hard task too complete. Kill me now. Haha.

I'll just drown it all out with work.
b.