i'm going to blog alone!

I'm going to die alone! All of my friends are married or engaged! They have corporate jobs and are planning on buying houses! Most of them are in some stage of reproducing. It's sickening yet everything I've ever wanted. My life is in shambles! It's unpredictable! It's a mess veiled in a cloud of denial where I say "It's just like an adventure!" and ignore the fact that the walls are crumbling around me and I need to make changes! Living beyond my means, encircling myself with enablers and singing lyrics from rock tunes that say I should go through my days as a rich kid pushing credit limits under company names. Nah, I'm having fun. I'll stick to how I'm living it for a little longer. No risk, no reward.